So I’m starting to write again… but as is typically the case I start with more questions than answers. Writing settles me. Writing clarifies even as it raises new questions. Embarrassingly, The questions I’m wrestling with now are the same ones I’ve been wrestling with for a long time. To further add embarrassment, I’ve had counselors and coaches and spiritual directors and friends offer very compelling answers to these questions. Perhaps I have not been in a place to embrace their answers. Perhaps wrestling with these questions is more important for my own or others development than having a “solid answer.”
My questions revolve around my identity, history and where to put my focus.
In a nutshell I’m wrestling with how my past experience, training and calling as a minister/ pastor/ clergy relates to my current vocation as a business professional. I mean I feel schizo over this!
A large part of my frustration is that I want to contribute to others who have “dual callings” but I have not settled in to my own skin on this issue yet. I want to write about how to sell without selling your soul and why marketing is not a sin and profit is not a 4 letter word. And the voices in my head (we all have them, don’t act like you don’t!) start in on me…. “Well St Francis never sold anything!” on the one side and “Of course profit isn’t a sin… it’s the whole point!” on the other….
I guess I want to do well and DO good.